I need to keep calm...

Mar 09, 2020

A note to self.

Sometimes I kinda feel like I don't know myself... or the kind of person I am. If somebody asks me "Hey, what's your hobby?" (a simple question right?) I don't know....

The thing is, I have been busy! :-/ ... for as long as I can remember and I didn't realize this, until I was told so. For the past 7 years (since 2013) I have been juggling work and study, mostly doing both full-time and for these many years, I have become habituated to planning every minute of my day. Now, I go crazy if I don't know what I'm doing next.

The hard part is, somewhere between these schedules, I lost myself... I don't know what makes me happy besides getting good grades and completing work on time. (Flashback: I was once prescribed medicines for my anxiety following multi-tasking stress!)

I don't know what I do for fun... I do not have a hobby, neither do I have a passion for anything else. Now, that I am almost done with studies and can finally relax, I feel empty! :-( I feel anxious trying to "plan" things.

Before this nature of mine starts to affect my health and relationships, I will try to find my calm...